Freshman Failure!!!
6/9/2025
more like poop hq amirite fellas?
has it really been 10 months? it's been 10 months. sorrey!
y'know reading back on some of the post here makes me cringe, i mean, i always say that stuff with anything i write but this time it's more like... asking myself why i even wrote that and considered it a genuine review when in reality it was more like me fanning my hands and girling over stuff i like. i guess you could say... that's the purpose of this site... HMMMM...
anyways, where have i been for the past few months?
erm... college... duh?
college was pretty hectic, they were tying me to boats naked and rubbing my body with honey and milk. okay that's a lie but it was like the mental equivalent of scaphism okay? lemme share some of my thoughts and experiences.
first year of college, it had its up and downs. i made a LOT of friends, lots of talented friends in fact! reconnected with old ones, hung out, ate together, blah blah blah a bunch of social shite, which i'm really happy with. lots of people share the same interest as me! it feels good to be in a community surrounded by people who appreciate and understand what you do, you know? cus in highschool, no one fw anything i liked, but now i am surrounded by terminally online artist who are either Tumblr or someone who jerks off to gacha anime games and it's okay so far i guess.
unrelated image, it's my infamous 4 back.
learning wise... they were either skinning our backs and pulling our ribs out or letting us cheat on the test, depends on the professor i guess. a lot of them were actually fair and super nice, it's just that a lot of us were lazy procrastinators (like me!). but there's also subjects that i don't understand why it's a part of our course... i think it's like government mandated but do we really need Purposive Communication for our Multimedia Arts course? i guess you can make the argument that it'll come handy with like future employers but our professor for that class was not very convincing because it felt very scuffed. i hate to be a critique of teaching styles because she was very nice but like c'mon lady why are you holding an online meeting on Facebook Messenger!
luckily there was more good than bad, a lot more than high school in fact! i remember this teacher in my high school who would verbally berrate us and tell us to just kill ourselves if we don't pass a test like what did we even do bro?! it's nice to be in an environment where i don't start developing stockholm syndrome for the instructor in our room. activities were fun too! instead of 500 presentations in front of the class for the whole semester... now it's 50! presentations sucks but i should be good at it considering i took Humanities and Social Science in my high school. i hate presentations because i'm very stubborn with writing a script or having flash cards, so i just improv the whole thing and hope for the best.
but for the activities that weren't presentations, it was either graphic design, figure drawing, filming and editing, or understanding color theory which is more like my forte! graphic design is easy, i know what my eyes want and i already know the basics.
have this uhh... monkey i made.
his name is Monkey the Manny and he lives in Brazil with his lovely banana wife
we made a lot of stuff in graphic design class but i'm not sharing any of them cus they suck.
figure drawing is where i absolutely double sucked though. i am NOT good at traditional art, i don't care about what anyone says especially my friends trying to gaslight me into thinking that my trad art is good, that stuff is NOT ON PAR WITH MY STANDARDS! i fluked the midterms exam for figure drawing because i didn't read the instructions and also because i sucked, whoops!
filming and editing was where the soul was sucked out of me, for films that required the whole class to collaborate i was always under the editing department and it sucked because i would be sitting on my chair for hours on a discord call late at night just hoping the editing head would say "okay! thank you Red! you can sleep now!" but this is the cross that i have to bear because what else am i good at huh? i'm not smart enough to be director or be a writer or actor...
well i was a director and a writer for another short film (though it wasn't class sized and more friend group sized.) and guess what? OUR FILM WAS THE FAVORITE! JUST FLEXING IT OUT THERE MAN, I GOT THE VISION!!!
also i did do some acting too... i played an extra for a scene and i have an anecdote for that whole experience because it sucked. the venue was like this rotting old abandoned shite hole filled with piss and other unknown substances mixed in with the rubble and soil, the moment i got there i was already regretting it because the whole area smelt like shit and piss and i couldn't put my bag anywhere because... IT WAS FILLED WITH SHIT AND PISS! i'm exaggerating this, it's not actually filled with shit and piss, just mildly covered in it. but it sucked having to play dead and laying on that dirty dirty ground with the feeling of wetness on the back of my head ough!!! and what did i get out of it? nothing except an extra spot on the credits.
i don't have any pictures but thanks to my PORNOGRAPHIC MEMORY I AM ABLE TO RECREATE THIS PLACE SHIT BY SHIT!!!
you have to believe me when i say it was really bad
anyways, editing was crap, but now i can talk about COLOR THEORY!!!! I LOVE THIS SUBJECT!!!! professor's the nicest, most talented, and most adjective! i love him! love him so much in fact that we chose him for our "interview a faculty staff" project! that whole project was such a mess actually, i remember we planned to have this interview conducted in the afternoon but it was just announced that the college was closing because of how hot it was outside and that it was only gonna be open until noon and we couldn't have it furthered delayed so i literally put my pants on and bolted to the nearest jeep while i was writing questions for the interview on like a piece of paper with sweaty hands and ran inside the campus like there was no tomorrow. he was nice enough to wait and do all this stuff for us man, he could've just said no and reschedule because of how hot it was outside, but no he stayed like a bro and kept his promise.
enough personal anecdotes, here's something from color theory.
this was horribly rushed
this really isn't from my color theory subject but i don't care anymore i don't know where else to fit this, HAVE YOTSUBA CALENDAR!!!
you can see the glue stains that i spilled. i spent an hour trying to clean it off with rubbing alcohol.
it's a little ugly with those disguting printing lines but i literally fought the printer guy to get this shite printed and i don't wanna keep bugging him.
and this storybook too which i was 4 days late on because i underestimated it.
you can read the whole thing here!
sorry if it's generic sap, i'm not a writer, i'm a fraud.
but that storybook is pretty much the last activity i have for college, it's SUMMER BREAK!!! technically summer break used to start during March and end early June, y'know, when it was ACTUALLY summer in my country. but now it's been moved to June to early August which means i'm spending my vacation during typhoon season which is... okay since i won't be going outside much this vacation. i wanna WORK ON STUFF Y'KNOW?!
i have plans, some of you already know it probably if you've read my stuff on Newgrounds, i don't know if i can fit all of that work in under two and a half months but we'll make do with the time we have ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i think that concludes this post, i don't got anymore stuff to say other than... i need money... cus i'm gonna be broke this vacation... maybe i'll do comms this vacay who knows!
next post will come... soonish... BETTER BE CUS I HAVE ALL THIS FREE TIME NOW!
gootbye and love the world gherms!
has it really been 10 months? it's been 10 months. sorrey!
y'know reading back on some of the post here makes me cringe, i mean, i always say that stuff with anything i write but this time it's more like... asking myself why i even wrote that and considered it a genuine review when in reality it was more like me fanning my hands and girling over stuff i like. i guess you could say... that's the purpose of this site... HMMMM...
anyways, where have i been for the past few months?
erm... college... duh?
college was pretty hectic, they were tying me to boats naked and rubbing my body with honey and milk. okay that's a lie but it was like the mental equivalent of scaphism okay? lemme share some of my thoughts and experiences.
first year of college, it had its up and downs. i made a LOT of friends, lots of talented friends in fact! reconnected with old ones, hung out, ate together, blah blah blah a bunch of social shite, which i'm really happy with. lots of people share the same interest as me! it feels good to be in a community surrounded by people who appreciate and understand what you do, you know? cus in highschool, no one fw anything i liked, but now i am surrounded by terminally online artist who are either Tumblr or someone who jerks off to gacha anime games and it's okay so far i guess.
unrelated image, it's my infamous 4 back.
learning wise... they were either skinning our backs and pulling our ribs out or letting us cheat on the test, depends on the professor i guess. a lot of them were actually fair and super nice, it's just that a lot of us were lazy procrastinators (like me!). but there's also subjects that i don't understand why it's a part of our course... i think it's like government mandated but do we really need Purposive Communication for our Multimedia Arts course? i guess you can make the argument that it'll come handy with like future employers but our professor for that class was not very convincing because it felt very scuffed. i hate to be a critique of teaching styles because she was very nice but like c'mon lady why are you holding an online meeting on Facebook Messenger!
luckily there was more good than bad, a lot more than high school in fact! i remember this teacher in my high school who would verbally berrate us and tell us to just kill ourselves if we don't pass a test like what did we even do bro?! it's nice to be in an environment where i don't start developing stockholm syndrome for the instructor in our room. activities were fun too! instead of 500 presentations in front of the class for the whole semester... now it's 50! presentations sucks but i should be good at it considering i took Humanities and Social Science in my high school. i hate presentations because i'm very stubborn with writing a script or having flash cards, so i just improv the whole thing and hope for the best.
but for the activities that weren't presentations, it was either graphic design, figure drawing, filming and editing, or understanding color theory which is more like my forte! graphic design is easy, i know what my eyes want and i already know the basics.
have this uhh... monkey i made.
his name is Monkey the Manny and he lives in Brazil with his lovely banana wife
we made a lot of stuff in graphic design class but i'm not sharing any of them cus they suck.
figure drawing is where i absolutely double sucked though. i am NOT good at traditional art, i don't care about what anyone says especially my friends trying to gaslight me into thinking that my trad art is good, that stuff is NOT ON PAR WITH MY STANDARDS! i fluked the midterms exam for figure drawing because i didn't read the instructions and also because i sucked, whoops!
filming and editing was where the soul was sucked out of me, for films that required the whole class to collaborate i was always under the editing department and it sucked because i would be sitting on my chair for hours on a discord call late at night just hoping the editing head would say "okay! thank you Red! you can sleep now!" but this is the cross that i have to bear because what else am i good at huh? i'm not smart enough to be director or be a writer or actor...
well i was a director and a writer for another short film (though it wasn't class sized and more friend group sized.) and guess what? OUR FILM WAS THE FAVORITE! JUST FLEXING IT OUT THERE MAN, I GOT THE VISION!!!
also i did do some acting too... i played an extra for a scene and i have an anecdote for that whole experience because it sucked. the venue was like this rotting old abandoned shite hole filled with piss and other unknown substances mixed in with the rubble and soil, the moment i got there i was already regretting it because the whole area smelt like shit and piss and i couldn't put my bag anywhere because... IT WAS FILLED WITH SHIT AND PISS! i'm exaggerating this, it's not actually filled with shit and piss, just mildly covered in it. but it sucked having to play dead and laying on that dirty dirty ground with the feeling of wetness on the back of my head ough!!! and what did i get out of it? nothing except an extra spot on the credits.
i don't have any pictures but thanks to my PORNOGRAPHIC MEMORY I AM ABLE TO RECREATE THIS PLACE SHIT BY SHIT!!!
you have to believe me when i say it was really bad
anyways, editing was crap, but now i can talk about COLOR THEORY!!!! I LOVE THIS SUBJECT!!!! professor's the nicest, most talented, and most adjective! i love him! love him so much in fact that we chose him for our "interview a faculty staff" project! that whole project was such a mess actually, i remember we planned to have this interview conducted in the afternoon but it was just announced that the college was closing because of how hot it was outside and that it was only gonna be open until noon and we couldn't have it furthered delayed so i literally put my pants on and bolted to the nearest jeep while i was writing questions for the interview on like a piece of paper with sweaty hands and ran inside the campus like there was no tomorrow. he was nice enough to wait and do all this stuff for us man, he could've just said no and reschedule because of how hot it was outside, but no he stayed like a bro and kept his promise.
enough personal anecdotes, here's something from color theory.
this was horribly rushed
this really isn't from my color theory subject but i don't care anymore i don't know where else to fit this, HAVE YOTSUBA CALENDAR!!!
you can see the glue stains that i spilled. i spent an hour trying to clean it off with rubbing alcohol.
it's a little ugly with those disguting printing lines but i literally fought the printer guy to get this shite printed and i don't wanna keep bugging him.
and this storybook too which i was 4 days late on because i underestimated it.
you can read the whole thing here!
sorry if it's generic sap, i'm not a writer, i'm a fraud.
but that storybook is pretty much the last activity i have for college, it's SUMMER BREAK!!! technically summer break used to start during March and end early June, y'know, when it was ACTUALLY summer in my country. but now it's been moved to June to early August which means i'm spending my vacation during typhoon season which is... okay since i won't be going outside much this vacation. i wanna WORK ON STUFF Y'KNOW?!
i have plans, some of you already know it probably if you've read my stuff on Newgrounds, i don't know if i can fit all of that work in under two and a half months but we'll make do with the time we have ¯\_(ツ)_/¯
i think that concludes this post, i don't got anymore stuff to say other than... i need money... cus i'm gonna be broke this vacation... maybe i'll do comms this vacay who knows!
next post will come... soonish... BETTER BE CUS I HAVE ALL THIS FREE TIME NOW!
gootbye and love the world gherms!
